I do this whole, “I’m going to stop drinking NOW!” thing every few days, usually after a particularly bad binge.

I really want to stop. I really am tired of shaking, throwing up, being scared, not remembering what the hell I did or said or texted or emailed…

I’m sick of getting the brilliant idea to shave my legs at 1AM wasted out of my mind, then wondering why they’re so bloody the next morning. 

It’s really pretty out this early morning and I want to bike. I actually enjoy insomnia sometimes.

So this is another attempt of mine, public this time. Here we go…